Everything In It’s Time

For me as a Christian, it seems that one of the things I struggle with most is leaving things in God’s hands. I don’t know if part of my struggle is because I’m a man, and I feel the uncontrollable urge to fix things and have eveything planned out. When I don’t know God’s plan, and how can any of us know it really, I realize I fall into the sin of worry. I think it’s probably the worst when I truly desire to leave my life in God’s hands and trust in His plans for it. It think we too, I know I do, fail in having the secret desire of want God’s will for our lives to be what we desire. Above all, I most desire that my will be His, that what I desire is what He would have me desire.

Most people now know that I’m looking to move to Michigan, and one of the big reasons is of course Vanessa. I have been so blessed by my relationship with Vanessa that I want to see where it will lead. I really feel that being closer will only help to strengthen our relationship and help us to get to know each other even better. One of the key struggles here is that when I move needs to be in God’s hands and timing. I don’t want to fall into pushing my own desires ahead of God’s perfect timing.

What still amazes me is that even in spite of my times of worry God is right there to show me his truth. Every moment in His Word gives me a glimmer as to what He desires for my life. I’m so thankful for a heavenly father that has it all figured out. I desire to stay in that comfort, and not let the doubt that is in my flesh keep me from the comfort in His arms.

These past few weeks have been sort of overwhelming as I see how God has been working, and just how things with work have gotten so crazy. The very thing that has kept me from going too insane, is knowing that God only asks me to get through today and seeking His guidance in that. What has been amazing to see is how He used the craziness of these last two weeks to give me even more appreciation for time of rest He has given to me this weekend.

So these weeks ahead I desire to continue on the peace I have found by putting complete trust in God for the details of my life.